Loki
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Sif sells young Loki to slave traders, who start breaking him in as soon as they've handed over the gold.

Honestly, this is near the bottom of my priority list -- I was following some whump prompts set by a fan, and didn't exactly intend to start a new adventure, but that's how it shaped up. If I get around to continuing it, I'm not sure whether I'll focus on Loki's experiences being psychologically broken down, or Thor's desperate attempts to find out what happened to him, or a mix of the two.

ETA: Have decided to use this fic to just throw in random scenes of Sif being a bastard to Loki. Maybe the reverse someday, who knows. But they're disconnected scenes / scenarios now, and may or may not get follow-ups.

Content Warnings

Psychological torture and a bit of physical torture.

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Exotic Travails

Fan Comment

Ohhh I love it! Throw him in to a terrible situation and see what he does with it!

Poor Loki isn't even getting a chance to get his bearings here!

When Sif receives a warning from her future self, she must wrestle with her opinion of Loki.

The first chapter could be considered all on its own, but the plan (should I ever get to it) is to have the second chapter be Sif considering Loki's actions and trying to see him through new eyes (less judgmental), and Loki getting kinda weirded out by her change in demeanor (and the rare times she stands in his defense). The third chapter, then, would be how much this "having someone who might be in his corner" affects Loki's decisions during the aftermath of the Jotunheim invasion (possibly including a prelude wherein Loki bitches to Sif about Thor, and she commiserates), because I get the impression that his actions would've been very different if he thought even a single person in Asgard would support him (not counting his mom).

Content Warnings

Discussion of some canonical events that are pretty harsh when stated directly.

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Sifting Causality

Fan Comments

Future Sif with her 20/20 hindsight still felt very much in character, and is probably the best person to convince her past self to change her ways, because she knows the right things to say to make herself listen to them.

Great concept, excellent execution. Your characterization of both future Sif and past Sif is spot on.

A bargain has been struck, to bring you a better future... at a price.

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Shadowy Warnings

Fan Comment

Why must you torture us like this (laudatory)

During Thor's coronation ceremony, Odin reveals Loki's true nature, and tells Thor to prove his loyalty to Asgard… by doing the unthinkable.

Content Warnings

Odin tells Thor to kill his helpless brother, publicly. Thor considers every possible alternative, and all the ways they could go horribly wrong.

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Before the Norns

Fan Comment

I hope Thor plunges that dagger into Odin's shriveled up black heart. The scale of betrayal and sadism is too large to comprehend.

The frost giants have fallen to the might of Mjolnir. But where are his friends?

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Blood on the Ice

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At first, he’d whooped and hollered, grinning in savage triumph through the blood that streaked down his face. But then his grin had faded. There were no answering cheers—no shouts of victory, no calls for aid. Just… silence, as dead as the world around him.

Loki's encounter with Laufey (after briefly getting left behind on Jotunheim) spins things in a whole new direction, affecting the very fate of Asgard.

Content Warnings

Terror and angst.

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Icy Diplomacy

Fan Comment

I like that you keep Odin's many contradictions even in his point of view—you neither demonize Odin nor make him the perfect, understanding father right away.

If you'd like to know more about Laufey's mindset in this piece, do check out the comments section, because I discuss it at some length. Also, there's an April Fools' Day fic.

How is Odin a better father as a dog-person than he ever was in canon?

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The Kitten from the Basket

Fan Comments

I've been grinning non-stop since I first read "the Basket" and "Kittunheim".

This is far better written than a premise like this usually gets, and I loved every pun-laden sentence of it. Fantastic work.

But now I must guess which dogs and cats these are.

When Loki seeks answers from Frigga, he finds more than he expected.

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Hard Truths Need Not Stay

Fan Comments

Loki not fighting it because he doesn't want to hurt Frigga in the process... that sure is some angst

wow. Frigga's almost as much a bastard as Odin

Personal growth ain't a walk in the park.

In Thor, the titular character defies his father's edict, commits treason, slaughters dozens of Jotnar, and sparks a war over being called a girl. His punishment is a three-day vacation before it's all swept under the rug. The film gives lip service to character growth, but doesn't actually show significant change.

This piece gives Thor the chance for character growth in the literary tradition of the seven-step Alchemical Journey, starting with Calcination, the breaking down of Thor's ego.

Which is to say, the first step is to be as mean to him as possible, and man, do I accomplish that goal. Some 17 Whumptober prompts in a single four-page fic that covers roughly 24 hours of everything nature can throw at him.

Then it's a matter of washing him out, dismantling his pride and his pretenses, and letting him come to grips with what he truly is (and what he could be), then remaking him from the ground up. This journey should take place across seven fics, representing the seven stages.

Content Warnings

Um. Pay close attention to the tags, okay? It gets bad.

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Exile Ain't No Vacation

Fan Comment

wow. You're really beating the heck out of him, aren't you? The movie didn't do it for me at all, but BOY! I sure feel sorry for the big lunk now

Darcy's not fool enough to drive into a storm for six college credits, so she's back at the lab when an unexpected visitor drops by.

Now where'd she put that taser?

Content Warnings

General creepiness

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Storms and Shadows

Fan Comment

I'm not a fan of Darcy, but when you put me inside her head, I sort of start to like her.

When Covid strikes Thor's friends, he seeks Loki's help; Loki at first thinks it's pointless, but eventually gives in... and later becomes invested.

Content Warnings

I'm not yet sure what all they're gonna go through, but I figure each one responds to Covid with a different set of symptoms, some of which will be severe.

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They're Just Mortals, Thor

Fan Comment

Um, thor actually owning up and saying that loki has skills and is worthy? ALL THE YES.

Omg, I love this! You write the Brodinsons so well. :D

How can life go on with his brother gone?

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So Newly Gone

Fan Comment

It's too bad they didn't show more of this kind of relationship in the movie. Just wonderful, hon. Gets you right in the feels.

When Thanos finally shows up to take a look at the Chitauri's latest prisoner, Loki has been broken down enough that it doesn't take much to shove him over the edge.

Content Warnings

Torture (more implied than shown, but Loki's in a bad way both physically and mentally)

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Pain Is Inevitable

Excerpt

They like him, because his body insists on healing itself. Most of their captives die too quickly, but with him they can have fun.

“Do you wish the pain to stop, child?” the man asks, sinking down to a crouch before Loki.

There’s no right answer. There’s never a right answer, because he has no control here, no way of getting them to stay their hand, not even for a moment.

When Loki refuses to yield, Thanos demonstrates how easily he can be made to kneel.

Content Warnings

Explicit Torture: Burning metal bound to the back of his knees.

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Crawl

Fan Comment

So vivid and disturbing. And wholly believable.

Loki considers the ways he's grown close to his thrall, and distant from Thor.

Content Warnings

Unreliable Narrator: That scepter's really messing with his head.

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Hawk vs. Hammer

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“Everybody breaks,” the hawk adds, and Loki finds himself pinning the hawk to the wall, by the neck, shaking with sudden rage that seems almost not his own.

“I’m not broken,” he hisses in the hawk’s ear, feeling the pulse beating beneath his fingertips.

“Not what I said,” the hawk gasps out, calm eyes betraying not the slightest fear.

Peter finds Loki captive in mythological fashion but under NYC.

Content Warnings

Loki's punishment, and what he goes through to get free, are not for the faint of heart. Peter has a panic attack. General claustrophobic and nyctophobia setting.

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Pulled from the Abyss

Fan Comment

I love the way you write Loki, as more of a calm, level headed person rather than someone who's insane and always angry.

It might be essentially self-serving, but Loki's been in the place of fear and powerlessness, so at least he knows what to say. I love the panic attack scene. It is my new best friend.

(And yes, you have panic attacks down cold. Wish I couldn't tell you that with such confidence, but damn. Yeah.)

When Loki gets sentenced to sex slavery, Frigga begs Odin to reconsider -- but when he stands firm, she warns him that he'll regret the decision.

The title is from the Latin phrase "in loco parentis," which means "in the place of the parent," overlaid with the Spanish "loco," meaning "crazy." I don't typically go for foreign-language titles, but this lined up so beautifully that I just had to use it.

Content Warnings

Sexual slavery; not sure how graphic I might get. Seeming insanity. And as swiftly guessed by my readers, Frigga used magic to trade minds with Loki, which means that Frigga is the one undergoing years as a sex slave.

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Loco Parentis

Fan Comment

For having sacrificed an eye for wisdom, Odin has consistently, in canon, shown about as much of it as your average toxoplasmosys-infected-rat

Assuming that I've guessed right, you've created such a horrible situation that I am going to have to suspend my disbelief because DAMN, I need to know how things eventually end up, otherwise this will stay in my head and haunt me forever. And OMG, if everyone comes out of this alive and Odin finds out what Frigga put herself through, because of his stupid douchebag decree...Jesus, you're going to need Stormbreaker to hack through all that angst.

This fic also has the honor of one of my favorite comments about my writing style:

All I can say is that Winnie the Pooh is probably looking sadly at you right now and judging your writing choices. In both English and Latin.

When Loki breaks free from SHIELD's lab, Clint retrieves him easily enough, but the guy's cryptic words stick around in his brain….

Content Warnings

Unethical experimentation. Ableist insults.

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Cuckoos

Fan Comment

How frustrating for Loki to get so close and yet so far with Clint there to reel him back in. His fatalistic humor is my favorite though.

I'm debating about writing a follow-up, but it's super low-priority. If anyone else cares to do so, feel free!

Loki's been handed over to SHIELD, which is to say, HYDRA -- and they're pulling him apart piece by piece until he serves their will.

Content Warnings

This fic is one long sequence detailing the different aspects of torture between Loki's time with Thanos and Loki's time with HYDRA. Pulls no punches; I think the title is pretty apt.

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Stripped Down to Nothing (again)

Fan Comment

Omg my heart! I can feel the hope draining away.

Amazing writing as always!!

Please let someone save him.

Tony convinces the Avengers to dress in drag as part of a fundraising effort. And then to auction themselves off to the highest bidder.

Steve is slightly more in focus than the rest. Also, Thor is in full form.

Content Warnings

Not unless the thought of guys in drag bothers you? This is mostly a chance to be wacky, and to explore how each character approaches the idea of genderplay, on a scale from "embrace it and have fun" to "put up with it, it's for charity" to "bribe people to destroy any photographic evidence."

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Somehow I Miss Box Socials

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“Indeed, my friends!” Thor boomed, clapping Steve’s shoulder, “tonight shall be an event to feed the bawdy campfire tales of our grandchildren’s grandchildren! Already I have seen us bandied about on the Twitter; many have bewailed their circumstances in being unable to attend.”

“And the photos are going to be up across the world as soon as we step out on stage,” Bruce muttered morosely.

Thor’s grin grew wider. “Why Banner, can this be your first time donning a womanly guise?”

Steve frowned at Thor. “It’s not yours?”

For those unfamiliar with Box Socials: Small-town American fundraiser where the girls make fancy box lunches and the guys bid on them (thus also securing a date with the girl who made it).

The God of Mischief knows how to give as well as he gets.

I love celebrating April Fools with random crackfics, and this managed to pull in a bit of unexpected angst, plus a delineation of "teasing" (positive) vs. "mockery" (negative). Basically, if the butt of your jokes can't enjoy them, you shouldn't be pretending it's harmless fun.

Content Warnings

Some darker subtext gets hinted at, but not openly discussed.

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Ah, Fatherhood

Fan Comments

I like Loki doing pranks as a response to the guys ragging on his kids

I can see why Loki would be pretty angry about the mocking! I think his reaction was quite restrained (and pretty darn funny). You hit the nail on the head in characterizing the relationships between all the characters, especially Clint and Natasha. Loki knows not to go there with Natasha because he's been there himself.

I'd be interested to read Natasha's explanation to Tony about why exactly the mocking was so offensive and Tony's reaction to realizing exactly what he was mocking!

Frigga considers the ways her son has grown out of his boyish intimacy with her; Loki considers the ways he'll never have that same connection again.

Content Warnings

Mascara Alert! Canonical character death, and how it affects Loki, there in his cell.

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Five Intimacies Lost Over Time

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You’re not, he says, and wipes away the illusion with a touch, knowing he’ll never touch her real hands again, and yet not understanding just how immediate that ‘never’ will be.

Fan Comment

You sure know how to twist them screws, girl.

The odd parrot who's been following Peter around turns out to be the guy who invaded Earth… turns out he's not so bad, once you get past the prickly part.

Content Warnings

Language (both swearing and insults)

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A Stray Parrot in Queens

Fan Comment

Peter wrapping Loki in his webs cuz he thought he was trying to kill himself? Something I can ABSOLUTELY see happening.

In the wake of Civil War, SHIELD's resources are running thin. So when Clint gets captured, Coulson reaches out to the only person who could perform a rescue operation solo.

And then they both get stuck together for a while. Plenty of time for interesting conversations and a chance to reflect on their similarities.

Content Warnings

Hollywood-style unrealism. Non-consensual drug use.

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Turtles in a Bottle

Fan Comment

I love this chapter, it's both emotional and educational, and I'm impressed how much work you put in the dialogues.

When Peter runs low on web fluid, he gets Ned and MJ to help him break into the school lab to make more.

Content Warnings

One of my fluffier pieces.

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Web of Trust

Fan Comment

This is very much in character for all three of them, and I think you nailed their voices.

Ned wanting a better look at the laser-engraved spider is very Ned—as is not wanting the guard to get in trouble.

I was going to quibble about practicality, but Peter getting thousands of dollars in robotics from Stark but no web fluid makes sense, and Peter not just selling the bots (or asking Happy for actual money to get chemistry supplies) is very very Peter. I relate hard to the kind of person who would walk up 100 flights of stairs rather than bother someone for elevator access.

Also, if you'd like to both (a) pick up some new niche skills and (b) have your eyes opened about how much "security" is just "god, we hope people don't try to bypass this so-called lock," I can recommend a jaunt through YouTube's videos on pen testing.

Peter and Aunt May have to quarantine, but then Spider-Man winds up still on the news... just acting a bit odd.

Content Warnings

Not yet sure.

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Stuck Inside

Fan Comment

Ooh, now that's something to consider: how COVID affects superpowered people. Will their jacked up immune system brush it off? Will it mutate into something worse? Will they absorb and weaponize it? Possibilities.

I love the idea of Loki running around pretending to be Spider-Man, especially because he's actually trying to help Peter out a bit on this and not just cause chaos lol

When Loki tries to protect the commoners from Hela, she offers to let them live -- at the cost of Loki getting whipped for each and every life.

Content Warnings

It's a full page of Loki getting whipped, and trying to bear up under the pain long enough that nobody dies. It's not pretty.

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Lashes

Fan Comment

I really like the idea of Loki sacrificing himself for his people.

ah i loved it!! that pain, and him still thinking at the end that it wasn't enough 😩😢

The Grandmaster's acting weirder than usual, and Loki's about to find out just how powerful the guy truly is.

Content Warnings

Gets pretty creepy. Memory tampering, non-consensual alteration, existential dread.

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Reforming

Fan Comment

Hoooly cow that is HORRIFYING and I love it. The scope, the weight of that existential horror just. WOW.

Loki spent enough time under Thanos's tender mercies that he knows exactly what he must offer, if Thor is to be spared. And all Thor can do is watch.

Content Warnings

Loki offers to join Thanos willingly, holding nothing back, if Thor will be spared.

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Breaking Point

Fan Comments

I loved how deep emotions ran all along the text and you really made me feel Loki's pain and fear.

I am legitimately bawling. We deserved this set-up in Endgame and I am still distraught that we didn’t get it. And yet… this bROKE me. I am still crying.

While waiting to die, Tony dreams that the Snap got Pepper too. (And Morgan, because I'd forgotten that she was born after the Snap.)

Content Warnings

Depressing statistics.

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Dust and Ashes and Dreams

Fan Comment

Hey, I really really liked this! At first I was a bit confused over Morgan being alive, but I immediately accepted it—you write very beautifully.

Just when Tony's at his lowest, post-Snap, Peter unexpectedly comes back to life. Then they wind up running across Loki, and the four end up seeking supplies on an alien world.

This piece, I started writing for a fic exchange, only to realize it was too big to finish in time; I turned my energy to Pulled from the Abyss, which turned out great, and this piece here wound up on the WIP pile. Which means I won't be progressing with any speed, but I do have a fair amount written, and it's unlike any fic I've come across so far. I mean firstly, I've seen Loki with Peter and Loki with Nebula, but I don't think I've ever seen the three together playing off each other. And secondly, the setting of a spaceship and then an alien planet is another thing I have yet to read (Loki on alien planets tends to just be Loki on Jotunheim, or one of the other Realms, but GotG made it clear that there's a lot more to the universe).

Content Warnings

Depressing statistics. It does get pretty bloody during one key scene. Panic attacks show up a time or two.

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Long Odds and Risky Options

Fan Comment

Holy shit balls! I need to read more of this!! Awesome start!!!

I really like this Nebula. Her comment on "wailing over the dead" as well as the concepts of mercy and sadism are very interesting. She's got this unshakable confidence in her experiences, whether they make her evil or not, and doesn't care to soften her words if they are true. Very nice 👍

Thanos has managed to capture a number of Avengers, plus Loki. Tony's just looking for a way out.

I'm not planning a positive ending for this piece; it's here to showcase one possible reason that Loki ultimately gave in to Thanos: Thanos's realm exists outside time, and there is no way to leave until he allows it.

Content Warnings

Torture (offscreen)

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A Torrent Carving Inexorably at a Stone

Fan Comment

Welp this is disturbing af. In a good way (for us, that is).

From his hospital bed, Tony entreats Rhodey to watch over the teens he's taken in: Peter, Bucky, and Lukas, all of whom are sorta in hiding.

Content Warnings

Each of the teens has a troubled past; this includes elements of abuse and/or neglect, gang/cult activity, defamation / character assassination, and I'm not yet sure what else. If you were expecting a saccharine kidfic, well, that's not how I roll.

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Didn't Sign Up for This (but I'll see it through to the end)

Fan Comments

oooh this makes me really feel the anticipation, there's so much we don't know yet and i love it. i've been looking for a teen fic in this genre for some time now so thank you!! i have absolutely no object permanence so i'll just be very pleasantly surprised when you do update

Oh this is shaping up to be verrryyy interesting!!! Would love to see how these boys all interact with each other!

When Thor brings Loki home in chains, Loki's convinced that Odin has a dark fate planned for him. He's right—but it's not that simple.

Content Warnings

Briefly gruesome; bittersweet ending.

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Acceptable Loss

Based On

astolat's Chaos War

Fan Comment

I'm not sure I forgive you for Chapter 4 but you are one hell of a writer and I will probably read damn near anything you write despite the fact you just ripped my heart out of my chest.

*On hiatus—at a natural stopping point, so it's on the shelf, but I've been persuaded to add two more chapters to show the aftermath.

Loki plots the ruin of Asgard—those infuriating dunderheads deserve it.

Content Warnings

Fantastic racism. Loki hates Asgard with a passion and with good reason—and his hate's the only thing that's gonna save them.

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Festering

Fan Comment

Loki’s rage, frustration and hurt here so well portrayed!

I expect to get back to this one around the same time that I try yet a third piece of work based on Chaos War, as it'll get me back in the right headspace to explore the topic. Until then, this piece is likelywise sitting on the shelf.

When Loki has a nightmare, Tony treats him to a movie night. This gets under their skin.

Content Warnings

PTSD, bad families, layers of angst, and plenty of alcohol.

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Reclining Butterfly

Based on

Downward Facing Dog by EndlessStairway

Note

In DFD, Loki was enslaved by evil Tony Stark, so he's still very much in slave mindset. My fic is steeped in that trauma, but the details are mostly offscreen.

Fan Comment

I love Loki in "threat reduction mode", especially with someone who would never harm him but his mindset cannot grasp it. I loved how Loki ponders over every single thing that happens… his constant spiraling around what he should do, could feel and is allowed to express.

The fic I based mine on is disturbing enough that I'm not gonna link directly to it. But you should be able to find it easily enough, if you go looking. If you're a Whump lover, not turned away by serious human-rights abuses, and can make it through a massive fic to the end, it's quite a cathartic journey.